It’s 2:30 am and I still can’t sleep. I keep my book to a side as I just can’t relate to the current scene. It makes absolutely no sense to me.
I find it extremely absurd that, just a page ago, the main character only slightly begins to notice a boy in her college looking at her with “warmth in his eyes” (as if people can actually see that); and then a few pages later when he confesses his love for her, she is shocked (naturally) and, does the most natural thing, say “I love you too” (logic: now that you say it, I feel it too).
I mean like, seriously?
A few lines later she keeps her head on his shoulder and feels a sense of warmth as he tells her about all the times he secretly observed her and wrote poems on her (Umm…Creepy, to say the least).
I close my book and keep it on a side mumbling to myself on how ridiculous this story is. Then, I reflect on an incident that a colleague of mine shared in the morning with me.
Honestly, I was quite pissed with this colleague because he was literally telling me his life story throughout the day.
Initially, those were travel stories and then they got personal. I recalled my unease and irritation.I didn’t want to spend my brain cells on his story about the “almost relationships” he had had, while travelling here and there, on his job. All his stories, had one common emotion though. The moment the ship started to rock or the ship wanted to leave the shore, he left the ship.
He cribbed at length about how absurd it was for one of his work colleagues to be enraged when he started going around with his neighbour or how ridiculous it was for him when one of his ex-girlfriends, asked him to “stay in touch” when he was leaving the country.
Well like you, despite the feeling of “why are you telling me this”, I too was nodded my head in agreement.
This is what makes absolute sense to us millennials, I introspected.
I don’t think we believe in the existence of love. At least the romantic side seems forced and fake.
I couldn’t imagine the love story situation that the main character of my book had at any point in time, even though our generation is infamous as the “fast track generation” that swipes for love.
Are we moving too fast in our lives with the ideas of “love comes slowly”? are we spoilt by choice? do we even believe in the existence of “long term” love? what is love for the millennial generation after all? how do we even love each other? do we really love anything at all?
It’s 3 am now. If nothing, millennials are right about the 3 am deep conversations.
With these lingering questions in my mind, I decided to head to my bed.
Maybe someday I’d find an answer or maybe I would come back another time about another 3 am question on millennial love :’)